Hurry Up and Wait?

I have never been one for patience.  I want results yesterday when I start exercising.  I want to be done with projects minutes after beginning.  I am ready for opening day of baseball just days after the World Series champions are crowned.  For the past three years, I have been waiting.  It has been hard in so many ways.

It has been hard to decipher exactly what God is calling us to do.  I have spent countless hours in prayer, study, and in the Word.  I have talked to many people who have challenged me, encouraged me, and even pointed out the negative aspects of this journey.  The hardest part of deciphering has been assimilating all the information into understandable and digestible bites.

It has been hard to examine myself.  This has led to many times of crying out to God to purify, change, strengthen, and reveal to Himself to me.  I know my own weaknesses, strengths, spiritual gifts, failures, and triumphs.  The hardest part of examining myself has been being real with myself and seeing myself in light of Christ in me.

It has been hard to learn enough.  I have spent the better part of the last three years reading and listening to podcasts and seminars.  I have tried to soak up the knowledge of others…people who have been down the same road and are significantly smarter that I am.  Leaders are learners.  I want to be a better leader, father, husband, and Christian.  The hardest part of learning has been reading and reading fast enough and with enough comprehension to effectively transform me into His likeness.

I am not very patient but God is showing me that I need to wait on Him and follow His lead and I am slowly yielding.